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Gratitude : A Father’s Love

November 23, 2013

I am a little late for Free Write Friday. And now after I have mulled it over in my mind, myย  heart can reveal its contents. Even now as I write my heart swells..and brings me to tears the importance of being grateful. As I turn back the pages of my life’s chapters, there are some missing pages. Those are memories that caused sadness…the earthly father that I did not get to know…He would never know of the huge void I had in my heart, because I didn’t have a daddy’s lap to sit on, I would never hear him say” I love you. ” Alcohol played a big part in his life..I didn’t experience a father’s love. When I was a child my mother permitted some people to pick my sister and I up and take us to church. The details are all very vague and I only remember that it was a small building and white. It had brown wooden pews and I do remember that they used flannel boards. Over the years I had other experiences being in church, but never with my parents. I don’t believe that gratitude comes naturally. I think we are born with expectations and wants and grow up thinking that we deserve or are entitled to have. Life’s struggles are what shape us. Being resentful and holding a grudge is only damaging to our well being. Life’s challenges are meant to build character. Some use excuses for their struggles and end up being bitter and maybe develop a chip on their shoulders. As I got older I didn’t know what unconditional love was. It was not until I encountered the love of God and as I allowed Him to minister to my wounded soul I was on my way to understanding unconditional love. It has taken many years to grasp all of this. Layers of guilt, shame, unforgiveness, and so much more eventually began to peel off. Layer by layer. Learning to forgive myself, learning to love and forgive others. It all came with a price. Each day represents new beginnings, new encounters, learning, growth and now gratitude is so very vital and so very natural to begin each day with “Thank You”…. Nothing Missing, Nothing Broken..

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  1. November 23, 2013 10:25 PM

    I begin each day as part of my spiritual practice with a thank you. And before I go to sleep , I say seven thank yous – something my sister told me to do. It does seem the more grateful the more blessings.

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    • November 24, 2013 9:14 AM

      Hello! i appreciate your comment..I believe thankfulness opens up doors of blessings too.. Have a beautiful Sunday!

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  2. November 24, 2013 11:25 AM

    This touched me quite deeply, Roberta. I believe gratitude and forgiveness are two touchstones to a happy, blessed life.

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    • November 24, 2013 6:32 PM

      Hi Victoria! Nice to meet you..Thank you for leaving a comment. Being raised in a household that didn’t share feelings, writing has become an outlet and avenue of discovery. I so agree with you!

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  3. November 24, 2013 1:23 PM

    Simple, yet so important and forgotten much to often. Thank you. Two little words. Shouldn’t be hard to forget, yet we do. Thank YOU.

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    • November 24, 2013 6:34 PM

      Hi Gemma! Yes, so simple and sure makes a difference in my life..

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  4. November 24, 2013 1:26 PM

    That doesn’t sound right but I hope you know what I mean. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

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  5. November 24, 2013 6:25 PM

    ๐Ÿ™‚ Very nice…and very touching. ๐Ÿ™‚ Not easy at times to talk about or to live. Thank you for sharing part of your journey. Take care! ๐Ÿ˜€

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  6. November 25, 2013 3:39 PM

    I’m not sure – I remember starting out happy, grateful, generous. Some of that was driven underground because of different convictions and experiences among family members. But I was so lucky to have a wonderful relationship with my dad and a rocky relationship with my mother that finally evened out.

    For perhaps twenty years now I’ve been in the process of moving back to the place I started. But I don’t regret a bit the struggles. I’m grateful for them. I wouldn’t be who I am today if I hadn’t learned to cope with them.

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    • November 26, 2013 5:55 PM

      We’ve all had different experiences..with family ties. How nice it must be to have good memories of your childhood.

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      • November 26, 2013 5:59 PM

        It is nice – and I’m so grateful Mom and I began resolving things at last. I still have some regrets, but at least I still have my aunt to remind me that Mom wasn’t perfect, either. ๐Ÿ˜‰

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      • November 26, 2013 6:20 PM

        I have some mommy dearest memories.. Lol!

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  7. November 25, 2013 5:02 PM

    Such a touching story and hits very close to home for me in more ways than one. Thank you for opening up and sharing. Many blessings to you.

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    • November 26, 2013 6:04 PM

      Thank you Kellie! Sometimes I hesitate to share and be open, but I like being real and truthful about some life experiences. It just may help someone out or maybe just knowing that someone has had similar experiences helps too. Thank you so much for commenting! Many blessings back to you as well..

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  8. November 25, 2013 6:14 PM

    Thank you for an honest piece. Being grounded spiritually helps us understand ourselves and opens our hearts to something greater than us. Love and light become a par of us. For that I am truly grateful.

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    • November 26, 2013 6:08 PM

      Thank you so very much! I was in the dark for many years and am grateful to live in love and light..

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