
Sunday Soul Search

sow kindness
I laugh at myself, as I have no river image.. But this is impromptu this morning, although this photo is not..
As I sat this morning, fighting waves of emotion and dealing with what I have heard and what I have not heard. Being suggested to me that I need to do more. So under the weight of sadness, I could break, but I choose to cling to what I know. After years of life’s lessons and life’s being in the pit of self and sin.. I choose life in Jesus. The Jesus, whom I met as a child, in a small white church. The Jesus on the flannel board, that I didn’t quite grasp it all, at that age. Neighbors had taken my sister and I to church, for how long, I don’t recall.. But in my little unknowing heart, I met Jesus, or rather He met me..
I was a quiet child, I liked to sing the songs. Since God planted in my frame a heart for dance and music, I was open to singing the songs that spoke messages of love. Still I am not sure what all I understood. I was young. So here I am today, in a state of mind of frantic and wanting to scream, but God, yes it’s God that brings comfort to my soul. How do I describe this.. how does one explain comfort from God, comfort from the Holy Spirit. It’s his peace, his presence, his still soft quiet voice that speaks and reminds me about His peace. The waves of emotion settle my heart and he will each and every time I cry out to Him… Peace be still my daughter, for I am with you, I am with those that you entrust me for their care.. I am so grateful to be in His presence. To have a personal relationship with Him. I know what it is to not have His peace, to be searching to find what would fill the void in my heart. It only led to much sorrow. And now, I am a new creation in Christ, and no one can tell me any other. I did not have anyone to reassure me at home of God’s love and protection, but He formed me in my mother’s womb. He had a plan and purpose for my life and it was good. He has had his eye on me all along…
He has His eye on you, my darling JADEY…
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid… John 14: 27
As much as I appreciate the thought of vacation, I have been pondering on the fact that we all need to squeeze in a few minutes each to take time to smell the roses. In our case it is smelling this gardenia. Sometimes it’s hard to find that time in our fast paced life. After much activity of the weekend it was nice to sit outside this morning and let the birds entertain me. Listening to the sound of the breeze blowing through the trees starts my day with peaceful thoughts. This sleepy community has yet to wake up and it’s wonderful to take it all in before the cars start roaring by. The birds that occupied the water pump have flown the coop. I was kind of disappointed to not be able to see them and the little ones take off as I had hoped to capture that moment. They had other plans and made their departure when we were not home.
This Gardenia is our very first one and it’s fragrance if heavenly..